Whats Mine

There is an issue at hand that nobody will speak aloud about, I personally don't like how a certain "Klan" of individuals are being treated. Walk with ur head up and your back straight is what my mama instilled in me from day 1, but I feel like I'm being hated and mistreated for carrying it out, she always told me that i would be judged off of my appearance and how i chose to carry myself, now that I'm older I know that's because people don't actually take the time to get to know one another anymore they just make up their own scenarios according to your life silly huh? As I got older I just rolled w the punches that my mom set for me, I dress myself nice I keep a nice car and a place to call my own. I'm just not sure why and how this stupid epidemic came about: I keep my hair done, my nails and feet done, and I drive a decent car, normal right? Wrong according to those who are not happy from within I can only speak for myself here but a lot of us young women (MOST BLACK) have to deal with this stupidity/negativity, other women, (or people in general) passing judgement giving u the "evil" stare down, the cold shoulder or having an attitude toward you. This is at school work (yes work) and in life itself. The irritating part is the jealousy/hate itself jealousy is a sin by the way and we will get back to that shortly,so if you keep yourself up you have to deal with sly talk being treated funny and even fighting in some cases (getting the drift on the sin yet?) the part that puzzles most of us is the simple face "you don't even know me" you see what i have and how i carry myself and take it as a threat but why? You do realize these are all materials things a? I'm sad that things have come this down to the wire people judging people with no background on who the really are as a person, not just what you can see. I'm certain they don't think of anything else when they pull this BS, they cant even fathom how broken I am, or the troubles I face EVERYDAY the fight I fight second by second, when they see my designer purses and clothes that they are just that...material things I hurt I cry I fight I struggle and pray like anyone else y crucify me for keeping myself up to par and to take it a step further I have no choice but to present myself that way I'm a BLACK young woman so I'm dammed if I do or don't, taking it back for a second if i had a million tattoos and wore quick weave ponytails and all types of "urban" (in their words) hairstyles, and if i came to; half dressed they would treat me different (i know ur eyebrows are raised be patient) I've noticed that the people of society today are scared of the "Strong One" you would think a well spoken black man/woman well groomed, preserved what have you would be accepted but were not; and there is a simple reason why. They are scared of us threatened by us, and not yet ready to accept the new and improved. They may even feel like were there to take away from overcome them, or excel further than they ever have. Meanwhile the "urban" one is being waited on hand and foot not because they take more to their liking or their better, but simply because they don't expect ANY thing from this group of individuals, they feel like they can befriend them because they are not a threat, they treat them kindly because they feel like they are beneath them, and can never surpass them (snakish huh) I said that to say it needs to STOP you never know what people are going through dealing with or what kind of baggage they are carrying around: My case I'm judged by my own by others man or woman white or black because of my material belongings though, I have to deal with things from all four directions and handle my  run (life) luckily I can deal. It is hard but that's a black woman's life been that way looks like its gon stay that way; I'm just here to say cut the shit EVERYBODY! stop pointing fingers and judging you don't know what the hardship of the next man/woman. Mind your own business and live for you and you wouldn't have the time to do these things, it takes being happy within. you for you to be free within you (Soyez libre en vous) the issue is society itself is always worried about the next person and not self, you get so caught up in what the next person is doing or trying to do and lose yourself. There is enough to go around for everybody. people get jealous and think others are trying to block their shine take away from them or their worried about somebody doing better then them when I'm only out here to get Whats Mine I'm not here to take from anybody else.
















I didnt feel like punctuating today ill fix it later




TianaMarie

What An Art

Today is a beautiful day...the lord allowed me to be part of it & 4 that I Thank him:

Today its freezing outside. I dont feel as on top of things as i should; but y? Today is just another day to help me focus on my everlasting days! Today im not the richest but i can live, I can make it, yes as of today im scoundroling to make ends meet, to make things work, numerous days I have made sacrifices to ensure this happens. But it wasn't today that made me realize im better than what im doing, better than what im being. better than just "making things work" Although this is an Art in which I admire very dearly. This is the art that my people built our foundation on, this is an art that is no stranger to my beautiful black kings/queens, this is an art that will linger in our culture for many years to come. It is a beautiful art yes....but it is not an art that any of us need to abide by; this art shows how strong/smart we really are. but we should only paint that picture when need be. that reason is because we can dig deeper and find that magical
canvus, the blank canvus the free canvus. the canvus where we pursue and create. In order to get to those flashing lights u must love your canvus, share your canvus ask 4 help on your canvus strive for that canvus to be great to be mindblowing, extravegant, strong; but most of all appealing to you. If we can scoundrel to make art. We can work to build a Beautiful canvus as it is our Lives.